Dear Mares Nest

May 18, 2019

Remember my last open letter? I will get to that in a second

I have several disabilities. I now wear a hearing aid (again)-up until 2013 I hadn’t since I was 8. As for the issue about my not being alone since I was about 10-it had to do with me having low blood sugar despite not being diabetic. Even though back in 2012 I was able to stay all by myself in my parents’ house overnight for two nights alone.  I also have self-diagnosed high end of the autism spectrum-hence why I think I was having a meltdown/panic attack about fruit  last year (PS guess who does the non-Sunday fruit business now? Despite trying to peel her finger off a couple of times)- For instance as a child (and even now) I wanted to be able to leave on time,  tags bugged me (still do sometimes), and when schedules go “off” for instance I had  a meltdown twice   when the program in the next town was cancelled and both times I had no clue. But at least the first time they had an excuse of they didn’t have a “phone tree”. They do now. But somehow I got missed in the most recently scenario which was supposed to have been a potluck day-and I had brought a cake Mom made to it and it was further complicated due to the fact that my parents were going back to (town) to get some kind of shot for people their age and because of road work being done outside the building- the parents went around the building before I could catch them again.  So I was crying in the grocery store next door.  I couldn’t remember the Doctor’s name or anything but the crossroad location. I didn’t like kimchi, olives, or marshmallows as a child but I do know. But something I still can’t stand is “barenaked” white rice. That if Mom makes fritters (and white rice) we finally came to the solution of putting the leftover Korean veggie juice in a little cup for Dad and I to put on our rice.

As you point out previously I have obsessions about Disney characters, Redwall (IF I read it lately), or Not Always Right (you will see that in adult Gen 7 years of the Swansons). As for my hair-thing is I have low motor skills outside of typing so I can’t really braid my hair since I can get it into three parts but then I get really confused after I try to put right over middle, and then leftover over middle. but I can’t reach the back of my head to put a big elastic on it. If my hair hasn’t been done in a couple of days- the part not in the braid but closer to my ears turn into little puffs of hair which in a couple of days’ time start to drive me crazy. I can put a battery into my hearing aid. I have been able to go to (Two town away mall on my own)

As for work like you pointed out there’s only a limited amount I can work and no one is going to be hiring me for half the amount a “full” part-time employee would be working. Either that or you need a year’s experience, or you need a Driver Licence.  Or one will have to work with a cash register (something mom doesn’t want me to do because of my limited math skills). Also it has to be between Town on my other town’s side opposite program’s town) or to the Program’s town neighbouring town) since the job can’t be in Toronto.  I don’t have any um Babysitter training so being a childcare provider (which is what I want to be) is kind of is out.  According to luminosity (and also according to my own bossiness) I would make a good manager (the only problem would be the stress). Even though I do have a funny idea about a new kind of business.  Sort of the same idea as mystery shopping but not quite- instead of mystery shopping a shop you’re dealing with the rude customers who think they “Always Right”.  Let’s say a store has a repeat bad customer they call ( my business) and I send one of my employees to the store to follow the bad customer around the store. Once the bad customer starts acting bad my employee will tell them off.

 

My remaining girlfriends are all engaged. Also all the stuff I consume (aka SimLit, Music,  books occasionally) all deal with romance and SimLit sometimes largely cover Woohoo. While because my girlfriends are engaged now (not to mention the previously married girlfriend)- I want to have some woohoo of my own. But without a partner I can’t do that now can I?  My parents don’t seem to care about the fact they’re basically saying that Doris Day song “Que Sera Sera”.   Yet I want to have my own children so I have a safety net of my OWN for when I’m around grandpa’s age. My parents just suggest I keep going to (program either in the other town or in this town) but dating is a huge no-no in either place. But we can have FRIENDSHIP relationship only.

 

Some examples of finding others as mentioned online:

volunteering-not likely to happen besides if most of my experience volunteering is correct- its either minors or old folks like my parents/grandpa.  (not to mention the place mom wants me to help at is an old folks’ home but they don’t have laundry on-site they only things they have there are “Friendly Visitor” and “(Place) Market Assistant”)

church-minors or old folks and people with their own families

a “Potluck” dinner/dinner part-don’t own my own place so that’s out not unless I want to rent out my church’s hall.

asking my friends- that will go well when 1 been with her fiance since before I meet her in Gr.9.  Not sure about the other friend but around high school, and the one remaing friend been dating her fiance for a little over a year (but knew him 2 years before that).  That friend suggested online dating to me awhile back.

class/meetups-only for minors, or old people and for meetups its the same plus there’s one for single parents.

Travelling solo-not an option for the above reason^  I’m getting tired of travelling with my parents. When my married friend and one of my engaged friends are travelling with their “other halves”. Which do you think would be more fun?

Museums-have only small museums here. The Good ones are in Toronto

Bars/Coffee places- don’t drink either and in the former its noisy.

Library/Gym-same as church &classes  only old folks and minors.

bookstore-outside of malls there’s only one bookstore and its in (program’s town)

Dog parks-only dog we have doesn’t like other dogs. Even if I DID have a dog like that my means of transportation to get to and from the dog park is limited since unless it’s a service dog,  taking dogs on a bus is a huge no-no.

Work-obviously a no-no. “Don’t Date coworkers”.

online dating is out because my parents don’t trust it.

Matchmaking is also is out because it would mean I would have to travel into Toronto which is a huge no-no on my own.  I mean if I wanted to visited one of my friends in Toronto it would be like this “Take Mom into Toronto she does something else while I  meet up with Friend and then I will meet up with Mom later.”   I literally have to have Mom or Dad in the Doctor’s room with me when I go to a doctor because they think I wouldn’t be able to understand what the doctor says.  (And that doctor keeps asking about if I’m planning on becoming pregnant always an award question but this year more then normal-I mean what I’m suppose to say? Ask them if they know anyone available?)

Looking through friends’ fiances’ FB pages (the last one doesn’t have any friends because he only recently made a FB page) and it would be too awkward to ask my friends if I find anyone cute just to be told “They’re taken”.

 

Yet when I said I want to get experience in dating (ie the emotions) they suggest I read more because how to people who are men write about stories from a woman’s POV or vice versa? Problem is that makes me want to woohoo even more as I pointed out earlier

They also said I would have to take care of THEM when they’re older. But when the only thing I can do is COOK? I can’t change a bed-I did once last year and my parents got mad at me. I understand why Mom did her cast hadn’t come off yet.  Yet on the other hand they get so ticked off at me they want to kick me out.

 

So you see why I have to try  online dating despite my parents? I was so miserable when I discovered that all 3 of my girlfriends were engaged that I wanted to drink a entire bottle of pop OR eat an entire tub of Ice cream to deal with that problem. The closet I got to that is buying Cola drinks at bowling.

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Dear TMN Maybe you should reread your own posts about me?

November 30, 2018

Dear TMN, Maybe you should reread you’re own posts about me, ML, about the fact  I’m special needs and my parents are STRICT and I’m not allowed to go out anywhere on my own  which isn’t the church (besides bowling!! but that’s church people also too young-ie elementary school young or too old like 90), my social rec program (Dating is off-limits there) and I’m not allowed to go into (BIG CITY)..on my own. I’m only allowed to go to places with Girlfriends (and that’s another issues-not many around me because High School ones are spread across the province), and church people (see church).  Without dating sites the only likely hood of me finding a date if a bloody accident happens outside my parents’ house, the church, or the apartments where my program IS. Unless it happens at PTC mall or outside of ROM, Science Centre, or Ripley’s Aquarium if we ever returned to one of those areas. Not that dating site has been good for me so far and might I remind you of who steered me to THAT dating site? Rosemow’s  thread.  That site has made it more difficult-because men can’t start conversations with women unless they’re liked unlike before and visitors were gotten rid ago awhile back.  I almost had a date but it got cancelled (Stuff came out)

 

Sincerely,

 

MadameLee

Race Story video idea

July 8, 2018

Some Years ago UK had this video where a able-body character had a dream where  disabled folks were the majority and able-bodies were the minority.    Due to the drama (ie gun shooting)  that happening in both U.S. and in Toronto.  As well as non-People of Colour  Police treating POCs badly because they (the police) and non-police believing that POCs are criminals.

 

 

Well I have this idea of a similar idea but only you have a Caucasian male (Mike Myers? Dan Akroyd? Bascially any white male who isn’t Justin Biber). having a similar dream to the above but only instead of it being disabled folks being the majority it would be First Persons,  African-Canadian,  South Asian, basically People of Colour being the majority and cops (played by POCs) can “card” the white person  Also if he goes into a store,  POC employees can follow him around like he’s going to steal something.    It might give people a better idea of what People of Colour have to deal with on a daily basis

Enough isn’t Enough

January 13, 2018

I was reading the Toronto Star  today this article: Enough is Enough  and I was really ticked off by the FEMALE columnist’s attitude towards the women who have stepped forward and mentioned that men like Harvey Weienstien, Kevin Spacey, Albert Schultz among other men whom basically treated women like an object or property they owned-  who says that those women should “get over” with being touched/felt/etc and get on with their work.  But these men presumably have a mix of the 50’s and 60s ideas. (The 60s idea is that women go to college to get an MRS degree while the 50s idea is that women should be “barefoot, pregnant and in the kitchen”).

 

The PBS News hour on Thursday night, economists were discussing a study  an undergraduate  has done about words used to describe young women on the economist job market vs. young men.  The words for women were “breast”, “whore”  and “hot”  “bitch” among others like pregnant, dating, marry/marrying, rape/dating,  “attractive”  not one thing about how good their mind is or their ability to do the work while men were describe with words like  “empirical” “Data” “Monetary”  and “fiscal”.

 

We need to do two things 1)teach boys from a young age the oppiste sex aren’t objects to be their toys but are fellow human beings  2)We also need to teach girls that they should speak out if someone even a RELATIVE touches them in a way that is “wrong”.

Jerks suggest that people with food allergies never have a social life

December 14, 2017

Why do jerks always suggest people w/  food allergies just should never go out for a nice meal and make all their meals at home?  What if the allergic person is on a trip wether it’s a business trip or vacation? Like if you have a gluten issue don’t eat at Cinderella’s Castle Royal Table since it has a a small kitchen. But you can eat at Tony’s.  A person with an allergy if they’re on a business or vacation trip doesn’t have the option of making their own food not unless they buy a suite with a kitchen.  Also allergic people, like everyone else, do deserve a social life with their friends.

Will Everyone be on Welfare in the future when Robots take over?

December 8, 2017

Because of movies like “I, Robot”  I always had this question of if robots take over all the jobs (garbage collectors, bartenders, servers, delivery folks) except of police officers and scientists doesn’t that mean EVERYONE  except police officers will be on welfare system that many, many people currently complain about?   Since there is no other way for people to afford robots and yet in the movie “I, Robot” everyone has one and yet only a very few have jobs.

K IS NOT A TERRORIST!!

July 11, 2017

Here in Canada, the Canadian government has recently  reward 10.5 million dollars and an apology  to Khadar for  the lack of his human rights when  he  had been imprisoned in the Guantanamo Bay since 2002 when he was 15.

 

It’s annoying a lot of people treat him like a terrorist. I mean it’s not like all those young men who run off to Iraq,etc by THEMSELVES because they want to be DAESH otherwise known as ISIS. His FATHER took him there and LEFT him and forced him to become a child soldier which the U.S. has a law or used to which says child soldiers are not complicit if they kill anyone since they’re forced too that or risk being killed themselves.

 

About him confessing to killing of the Utah soldier  here are a couple of facts 1)he doesn’t remember anything about that DAY. 2)He’s partly blind because of being a child solider 3) if we look at history-anyone WHO IS TORTURED WOULD CONFESS TO A CRIME that might might not HAVE committed.  Not to mention he had NO legal representation which is the right of a Canadian citizen.

Why is everyone treating a mentally ill man as a MURDER?

June 27, 2017

In January 2011 a mentally ill man,  Richard Kachkar, accidentally killed a police officer with a stolen snowplough when he was off his medications. The police officer stepped in front of the moving snow plough thinking he could somehow get it to stop by stepping in front of it.    Kachkar was arrested and and deemed not criminally responsible.  He was recently released  this year and even more recently allowed to see his daughter but he needs constant supervision to make sure he stays on his meds.

 

What annoys me the most is  the fact is the Police officer’s widows and others like her treat him everytime they speak of Kachkar as if he INTENDED to kill the said  police officer and it drives me completely NUTS.  Kachkar NEVER intended to kill ANYONE the police officer was an fool for stepping in front of a moving vehicle.

WHY? WHY? Show people did you chose a deliberate method of suicide?

June 17, 2017

Warning spoilers

I just finished reading the book 13 Reasons Why.  I haven’t seen the show and what I’m extremely ticked off  that the the show creators, including Gomez picked a deliberate method of suicide  (ie wrist-silting) and yet  in the book, right after/around Clay’s tape it’s stated in the book is she used pills so when her PARENTS found her they’ll think it was an ACCIDENT.  This is one of the two things they should have just left alone or done it as it been done in the book. I wonder if there might have been less copy-cat suicides if that had been done as well. The only thing is that Hannah should already be dead at the start of the story so watchers don’t have to actually see Hannah’s completing suicide only see Clay’s reaction to the tapes. Hannah should have only been seen in flashbacks.

 

WHY, WHY change Tony’s and Clay’s personalities?  they’re the only GOOD people in the story who had nothing to do with Hannah’ s suicide.  I mean Hannah leaves the SECOND SET OF TAPES  with Tony.  Clay taking pictures just for paypack isn’t in his character at ALL. WHY change the characters at all (and what were you thinking changing the name of Jennifer to Sherri)..

Disney’s Cinderella movies Animated vs. Live action

May 30, 2016

I have always loved Disney movies-still do mater of fact. I think we should discuss some stuff about both of Disney’s Cinderella movies: the original 1950 and the live action 2015 one. We will discuss the animated version first

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Why is Most of the 1950’s Cinderella  in one place except for the ball unlike the 2015 live action version?

This actually I believe partly has to do with the War and from 1939-1944 the rest of the world was in a war against Germany and Italy. Because of this the Disney movies Bambi,  Pinocchio, Dumbo, Fantasia, and the Four package films-Saludos Amigos, Three Callberos,  Fun&Fancy Free, and  The Adventures of Mr.Toad and Ichabod Crane  didn’t do so well since their over-seas market was closed to them so by the time they’re in production for Cinderella-they’re almost bankrupt  (With the studio $4 million in debt, Walt Disney took a huge risk in making Cinderella.

He invested a staggering $3 million into producing the film which took six years to make)

-so they had to shot in live-action before animating. Just because we don’t see 1950’s Cinderella outside the house except for the ball doesn’t mean she NEVER left the house since there were no other servants in the house who do you think does the shopping?  She would have to do it..so that means she would occasionally leave the house for ‘work’. Presumably whenever the steps needed new clothes she would have to go along with them to carry their stuff around.

 

Why did the Prince have limited time in the movie/have no character traits at all?

Well the Prince was going to have a scene where he was ‘hunting’ a deer before it’s realized they’re friends actually. But for some reason (I suspect for a similar reason as Snow White’s prince scenes got scrapped because the animators couldn’t get the prince’s actions right).  But he doesn’t technically have no character traits at all the eye-ball rolling&yawning he does the first time we see him shows he is rebelling against his father for having to have this ball when he didn’t want it.

Cinderella  is a flawless individual

No she isn’t..she gets angry several times during the movie “Oh even the CLOCK orders me around.”  “I can’t help Your Highness objects to an earlier breakfast”  “You mean old thing..I could..”  “Maybe I SHOULD interpret.”

Now let’s talk about the Lily James’ Cinderella

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Why is one scene Cinderella is eating scraps at night but the next scene shows her trying to have breakfast with the steps leading to the “Cinderella” nickname for her?

Maybe up until the “Cinderella-naming” scene maybe she HAD been allowed to have breakfast with the family but otherwise she couldn’t join them for supper  maybe they  over male guests and potential husbands for Drizella and Anastasia? And with Cinderella being at the same table as those two she might have been a competitor for a husband

 

Why are there two breakdowns in the 2015 Cinderella?

Well the are two breakdowns because the first one is because of the fact that the steps have finally came up with that ugly nickname for her that is the movie’s title-yes she is no longer part of the family.  But that’s minor compared to the tearing of the sleeve the step-mom does much later

Why doesn’t Lily James’  Cinderella try to get out of the tower like her 1950 animated counterpart? 

Well we don’t know how long the search for the mysterious girl took so she might be stuck in there for days and gave up trying to get out since I highly doubt that Lady Tremaine would let her out unless a)she got what she wanted (be head of the royal household) or b)Cinderella was dead and no longer a threat to her.  Writer’s question-I wonder who the heck made the steps’ meals for the how long it took for the slipper’s owner to be found.

Why does Cinderella give her name as Cinderella at the end of the movie?

I think its to tell King Kit that she’s consider herself to be a servant girl now than anyone someone of social standing like Kit  was would want to marry  if he wasn’t sure how much he was in love with her.  Techinally Kit hide who HE was as well when the two first meet in the woods-Cinderella didn’t know he was the Prince until she got to the ball.